{"id":1506,"date":"2009-09-25T20:39:45","date_gmt":"2009-09-25T12:39:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mytwogirls.net\/?p=1506"},"modified":"2009-09-25T22:54:03","modified_gmt":"2009-09-25T14:54:03","slug":"of-love-of-anger-of-damage","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mytwogirls.net\/?p=1506","title":{"rendered":"Of Love, Of Anger, Of Damage"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Zara\"<\/p>\n

One day we were talking about love.
\nMe : Do you think mummy love you more or mummy love meimei more?<\/span>
\nZara : I think you love me more, because I’m good girl and Zaria is very naughty<\/span>
\nMe : No. Mummy love both of you the same. Because both of you are my daughters<\/span>
\nZara : I think I love you more than Daddy.<\/span>
\nMe : But mummy always scold you.<\/span>
\nZara : *reassuringly*It’s ok, you scold me for a reason. Daddy dilly dally for no reason, just always like to dilly dally.<\/span><\/p>\n

Zara was angry with me for something I said in the car (actually, it’s just a small matter, we said we’ll go for a holiday without her, and she got so upset), and when we got to the supermarket, she didn’t want to hold my hand. She even said, “I don’t love you any more. You are just a piece of junk.”<\/span> (if you are asking whether I’d used such words to her, NO, I never did).
\nShe was walking in front, and I was just following behind. When she took a turn, she got blocked by some dry grocery sacks (where I was tall enough to see her, but she’s not tall enough to see me). I just stood still on the same spot to see what she’s up to.
\nThen, she turned back and couldn’t spot me. I could see her turning white, then red, she took a few steps forward, then backwards, terrified, she started shouting, “MUMMY! MUMMY!”<\/span> and then started crying. I raised my hand up and said “I’m here.”<\/span>
\nIt took her a while to calm down, she kept asking me, “Where were you? Why I couldn’t see you.<\/span>
\nI told her I was right behind her and because she was angry, she couldn’t see me.
\nShe said, “I was so angry until my eyes got fire, and I cannot see clearly. Now I’m happy, my eyes got water, wash away the dirt and everything, and then I can see clearly.<\/span> o.O”<\/p>\n

Zara went to the shop with me and when we got back, she swung the car door too hard, and knocked into the pillar in our porch. The car door has a slight scratch. Of course Daddy wasn’t happy. He brought it up again after a day :
\nDaddy : So, what did you break today?<\/span>
\nZara : Nothing.<\/span>
\nDaddy : The rate you are going, one day you wake up and you’ll find the whole house collapsed.<\/span>
\nZara : Dad, I don’t want the house to collapse.<\/span>
\nAfter thinking for a moment..
\nZara : But the house and the car is not connected<\/strong> wut!<\/span> <\/p>\n

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